I haven’t posted in quite some time. I’ve been super busy. Soooo much shit going on.

RANT TIEM! OKAY GO!

My spring break was awesome! My cousins from Ohio visited and I had the best week of my life.

The weeks since:

I’ve gotten my license.

I’ve been doing better in school.

I’ve been putting forth an affort at home.

I’ve had a better attitude.

I have learned alot about myself.

I’ve learned to let go easily.

I’ve tried to live every moment like it should be. Without regrets and just.. well, perfect.

On the bad side. (and no, I’m not moping, just expressing/stating)

I still struggle alot with my past.

I still feel like the person I love, I’ll never have. (This has been getting easier to get rid of lately though)

I still feel like everything I do, disappoints my parents.

I still have no clue what’s going on with me right now, just big changes are coming soon, I know.

I still feel kind of insane. So many things run through my brain. I just don’t really get to talk about them.

Oh, and I know, I know, this sounds reallllly emo/mopey/mylifesucks but, it really isn’t. I don’t want sympathy, or empathy, or whatever you want to call it from anyone. I want to figure this all out on my own, and I don’t want people to feel bad for me.

I joined the powderpuff football team at school today, not really sure how that’s going to turn out…

I am miserably waiting for soccer seasons to come back again. I can’t believe I had to give up a tourney with an AMAZING team because of the SAT. Which, I take May 7th. So, the weekend before=ohmygodwaymorestudyingthanI’lleverevenneed. Lol.

Been gaining weight lately, but guess what, I’ve been exercising since like monday, and I’m already feeling better.

Ahh. I want a webcam. Bad. Anywho. Have a good night guys, hope I get on more and post more often.

Toodles.